my purpose

Every blog has a purpose.

There are fashion blogs. Food blogs. Decorating blogs. Instructional blogs. Informational blogs. Gossip blogs. Journal blogs. Family blogs.

In my opinion, none is greater than any other because they all serve a different purpose.

During the time that I spent away from blogging, I thought a lot about why exactly it is that I blog.

Do I do it to please others?

To try to have posts just for the sake of the your reaction?

Do I do it to compete with other blogs?

To have a bajillion comments?

Do I do it as creative expression?

To work on my design/writing skills?

The more I thought about it, the more I realized the difference between when I enjoy blogging and when I think of it as a chore.

So I've figured out my blog's purpose, & here it is:

To hold all of my thoughts, musings, and creative desires in order to preserve them for a later time when I might need them again, and to allow me to improve my writing abilities.

It will not matter whether or not I have 5 readers or 5000, and it will not matter what it looks like, as long as I am pleased with the content.

I will love it, and in return it will help me in my life.

The purpose of life is a life of purpose.

-Robert Byrne

It's nice to have a purpose.

quitting

Today I realized something that isn't exactly easy to admit.
It's something that I've known deep down all along, but wanted to stay in denial about.
Today I realized that I'm kind of a quitter.

But I'm not your average quitter!
I don't quit intentionally. No, no, I plan on finishing everything I start...eventually.
The problem is that eventually usually doesn't come.
For example, you may be wondering why I have been MIA for the past months.
Well I will tell you.
It wasn't because I was sooo busy that I simply had no time to spare, and all of my super important plans left me with no time for blogging; it wasn't because I was on a blogging strike and wanted to give it up; and it wasn't because I had nothing to say.
I had lots of things I could've said.

The real reason is because I'm a quitter.

You see, I have been planning to start blogging consistently again for quite awhile now, but first I wanted to fix the layout of my blog because it just wasn't working.
So then I started looking for cute templates. Then I realized that I hated my blog name and wanted to start fresh.
So then I started thinking of cool/fun/catchy/clever/witty blog names, and realized that this would basically be my face. My image. Some of you don't know me, so if this is all you have to judge me on, then it had to be AMAZING, dang it!
I became overwhelmed with all that I needed to do in order to have a blog that I was truly proud of, so I decided that the best option was to just pop open a Dr. Pepper & put it off for another day.

Aka, I quit.

This is just one example of the ways I have been a quitter in my life, whether intentional or unintentional.
However, while today I realized that I am a quitter, I also realized that I don't want to quit anymore.

Which is why I am back to blogging.
I still don't have a cute blog, or a cute name, or anything of the sort, but I'm going to take it one step at a time.
And that's also how I am going to start taking the rest of my life.
If I'm going to try swimming across the Atlantic ocean, first I need to learn how to swim. (& let's face it, my swimming skills really need some work.)
So there you have it.

"The elevator to success is out of order. You'll have to use the stairs... one step at a time.”
-Joe Girard

Get used to having me around again!

some vids.

You will hate me for posting this.
The following video is beyond words,
& must have forces stronger than a jedi knight because I've watched it twice already.
TWICE.
& now "why must I cry, why must I cry, why" has been in my head all day.
Seriously, this is the weirdest & most ridiculous video on youtube
and...I don't want to suffer alone which is why I'm posting it for your enjoyment.




To prove I'm not completely evil-spirited, I'm also sharing with you two hilarious videos that will make you forget all about rehdogg gettin' all soapy and singing about fatherless ghetto boys.

You've probably already seen them both because they have like a bajillion hits, but I just discovered them this week. So who knows, maybe you haven't!

loves vs. hates

guess who did what she said she would!?

ME!

I posted. when I said I would.
this is why people call me Awesome Amy.

(sidenote: I'm having a capitalization crisis. I hate when "I" isn't capitalized but I don't want to capitalize the first word in a sentence. but then it looks inconsistent. feel me? I don't know what to do. k that's the end of my sidenote)

today, I would like to share with you things that I hate vs. things that I love.

ready set go.

LOVE

myPod. {that's its name}
surrriously. this thing is amazing and makes me happy for at least an hour a day. listening to music is kinda my best friend.

HATE

the Beastie Boys.
no, I don't wanna ch-ch-check it out. who decided to let them play on the radio & make CDs? someone who hates happiness & babies, that's who.

LOVE

Dr. Pepper, turkey sandwiches, and pizza.
I could live off of these things for the rest of my life. no joke.

HATE

olives.
dear olives: please die. thanks.

LOVE

summertime designs.
I love walking into stores & seeing brightly colored clothes, swimsuits, dishes, etc. Brightly colored things make me happy.

HATE

summertime heat. and boredom.
yesterday my car said it was 118 degrees.
please shoot me.

LOVE

laughing.
it really is the best feeling in the world. why use drugs to make you happy? laughing is much cheaper.

HATE

LOL.
when people use this they most certainly aren't laughing out loud. why lie? if in fact if you really are laughing out loud then you usually say HAHAHAHAHA! they need to come up with a different acronym for things that are slightly funny.

LOVE

sunsets.
they're so preeeetty when they fill the whole sky.

HATE

almost getting into an accident because I'm taking a picture of the sunset while driving.


so what do you guys love & hate??

spill.

so...

apparently I wasn't really "back" back.

as Kristina nicely put it, "So, for someone's who back to blogging, you are sucking!!"

and...she was right. I fail.

I really don't know what to say for myself.

basically what happened is I'd get on to blog, automatically go onto facebook (because let's face it, it's hardwired into my head to log in before doing absolutely anything on the computer) and then next thing I knew, an hour went by chatting with peeps [stupid facebook chat] and playing Farkle [stupid Farkle]. and by then I wouldn't wanna spend anymore time on the computer; hence no blog posts.

and now that I've spent all this time explaining why I haven't been posting, I really don't feel like writing the post I was going to do.

so....blog ya later?

I promise it won't take me 19 days to post again.

and the next one will be pretty dang sweet. for rills.

it will most definitely include pictures too. {none of this boring "text only" crap. I'm totally breaking my own rule}

ok. goodbye my peeps.

come back like, tomorrow. seriously. if I don't have another post tomorrow then I give you permission to...I dunno...do something mean. you can leave me a vicious comment that makes me want to cry.

deal? k cool.

bye.

(gaaaaah I still have to beautify my profile. this sucks. anyone wanna design it for me for free!? please & thanks)

guess what, ya'll??

I'M BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACKKKKKKK!!!!

Please don't have a heart attack. I don't want to be held responsible.

But this is probably the best news that you've heard in your ENTIRE life!! I hope you are prepared for the awesomeness that is about to ensue from my future posts. They will BLOW YOUR MIND.& by that I mean I have absolutely no idea what my little blog's future holds or what type of things I'll be bloggin about, but I guess we'll see as we go. {you should know that 87% of the time I'm all talk}. Funny little sidenote: I used to strongly dislike when people used { } or [ ] as their parentheses, and look at me now. Usin' em & stuff.

anyways.....

So it's official. I am back.

As you can see I shook up the look of my blog, & by using this particular template it kinda screwed everything up. And since I am html impaired, it's probably gonna be a little while til my blog looks completely cool. So don't judge. or hate. Or I will hate you. and your face.

(for example, I hate the fonts & colors! but I can't change it through blogger. I'm pretty sure I know how to do it but it's gonna take like, a year. so just be patient. geez.)

That's basically it for now. Got nothin else to say.

Except for one thing. I need your opinion.

Hate Twitter or love it?

I was very much anti-twitter & SWORE I'd never get one.

But guess what.

I got one.

I still hate it though. I just got it so I could figure out how the dang thing works. But if you have one then tell me your username so I can follow you & you can follow me & we can be twitter bffs & have so much fun twittering {not tweeting cuz that sounds GHEY} and it will be so AWESOME! Plus it will make me less of a twitter loner. [I have 3 followers. and only one of them is a real person].

So, for rills that's all.

I'm done.

Peace out yos.

(it's nice to be back)

[kinda]

Remember my super awesome bff Lauren, whom I visited in Colorado a few months ago?

Well, she came to see me last/this week!

It was a nonstop party, including trips to San Diego and Sedona, as well as lots of other adventures.

We had different spring breaks, so she came for the end of mine & beginning of hers. Meaning she came to school with me for 2 days.

We have so much fun together, & it was the best time ever. Seriously.

But being that busy made me realize something: I kinda love not being on the computer or watching TV. And I'm a MAJOR TV and internet-aholic. I used to have 6 shows that I watched religiously every week, and now I've gone 2 weeks without watching anything.

Why is this relevent, you ask??

Because I'm about to tell you something that may make most of you cry. (maybe with happiness, I'm not sure.)

I'm going on an indefinite blogging hiatus.

I just haven't been feelin' it lately, & I don't have any sweet posts up my sleeve. Also, I'm loving not spending so much time on the computer and I can't do that while blog stalking.

So....ya. I won't be blogging for quite awhile. I'm sorry, my 4 followers, one of which is myself. I'll be back eventually.